My mummy cried this morning. I ran to her and asked her something and suddenly her tears just rolled down. I thought she was sweating and I wanted to wipe them off. Then I realised that it was tears. She told me that she missed her mum. (My grandma passed away when I was 3 years old) I missed her too. So I told her that grandma will always be standing beside her watching over her. Sad mum.
We must be not good enough for her that she turn to grandma for help. Thats why she thinks of the past. My mum is still a little girl whenever mention about my grandma. Even me was jealous of my mother for her relationship with grandma. Don't know why I hope I can be as close to my mum as my mum to grandma...
For my mum, she has changed a lot for us. She used to cane us a lot. Before my SPM she was still caning me. My mum is hot-tempered i think. (She claims that before 4 of us exist, she is very gentle and well mannered) In the past, we are very afraid of her.
My parents are very busy people. It is normal for my mum to forget to fetch us after school or tuition. Even everyday finished school at 1.05pm she also cannot memorise it. Once when I was primary 6, my siblings and I waited from 1 to 2.30, all the students left already. The guard also locked the school gate and went home sleep liao. Mum haven't come. (Have neither pocket money or hand phone) So we decided to walk back. The distance is near. Only need to cross 2 big roads and few small lorongs can reach the shop. It was from Wisma Sanyan to SMK Methodist. So near! We hold hands tightly and cross roads together. After 10 minutes reach the shop. Then we went up to office. (Forgot to tell mum that we came back) My mum must have realised that she forgot us. Thus sending off a staff to fetch us. He could not find anyone of course la. My mum started to worry. (We are playing upstairs) When office staff told her that we are upstairs, she was so angry that she came storming up with her favourite rotan. Cane first! She cane us like no need energy one. After that scold and warn us not to repeat again. She told us that she will be worried if she cannot find us. In my heart I thought,'ceh, if you really worry, then you won't let us wait for over an hour la, not scared later people kidnap us kah?'(After this time caning, she did not cane us again for walking back ourselves)
When I was in form 1, I cooked lunch every afternoon. In the rest room, there were a small place for cooking, a table for eating and a sofa. And every morning we arrived the shop, we can iron our uniform, do homeworks or run up and down the shop. But before I go to school, I must prepare the lunch for my family. That time no one go tuition one. My daily life is to lepak around the shopping area near my father's shop. Sometimes go to school kia-kia. (my parents never know I was missing for the whole morning) Then come back prepare lunch. On one sunny day, I slept sweetly on the sofa and forgot to wake up. Until my mum opened the door and want to eat lunch, she found me overslept and have not prepare lunch yet! Oh no. I begged,'Not now ma, I need to go to school weh.' She scolded,'That is your own business' Rotan again. *Pik piak pik piak. After the caning, waters on my cheeks and hang on my nose. I simply cooked something and went off to school. Late liao. (I am 'Chi Dao Da Wang' in school since primary 1) Friends sit around me all came over and asked me what happened. I thought they saw my eyes red and swollen. But no! They said they saw my legs got many red marks. -__-''' Thank goodness, that whole day I sat quietly in class. So embarrasing that so big liao still caned by mama eh! When I was young, I used to think that her hobby is to cane us. @_@
In Sibu, all my friends knew that my mama is a tigress. Like how we see Laura's mum now la. Now she really become better mum. She can tolerate more. Nowadays, rotan education is discouraged. My mum had also tried to be a reasonable mum. This change makes us become closer. I told her my troubles and she teach me how to solve problems. When I was confused by my friends, I asked for her opinion. She can always give useful advices. That our stupid childish brain cannot think of. Since then, I started to admire her wisdom. As we become closer, many things that we have never done before now we did. For example, when she came back from work and saw that I finished cooking a dinner, she will said,'Good job, Shirley'. And a couple of times, she kissed me on my cheeks. Leaving some water on my face. I was totally shocked first time. But feel happy inside. =D
But my mother becomes more sensitive and likes to cry alone. If my father scold her, she hide at a place quietly, then we'll know she is crying there. Most of the time me and susan will go and comfort her. So, I can be my mum's mum too! I do hope that she can also depend on us sometimes, don't keep too many secrets to herself. This she cannot change, she only let her mum knows her secret. She understands us well, but I think I know her 1/100 only. This is the difference between a mother and her child. I think I will never know what my mother thinks.
Ma, I always make you angry or sad, but I appreciate you very much. I am the happiest in the world to have the best mum! I hope you can live healthily and happily for the rest of your life...