Sunday, July 31, 2011

加油

肥婆啊!~~~

懒惰虫啊!~~~

BLUR QUEEN AAAAa~~~

不懂察言观色的人哪!~~~

我要开始我的40天的灵修日记!

明天要有2个presentation + 一个assignment due.

玩够了,

去乖乖做功课了。

bye~~~

仨人很好听哦~
:)

也找到另一首郭静的
“我不想忘记你”

Tired

So thrilled to have my little sis back from NS!
I dun have to be alone anymore
hehe...

So tired after whole day working...
n we went to Kuching Fest after the fellowship,
eat plenty after the Health Talk of Going Diet.
LOL

Everyone seems still enjoy very much there~
Durian 猫山王 seketul for RM88 will u buy it???
haha,
we did not buy but playing at there...
RM 15 for 4 biji small fruits...
This is expensive leh.
Anyway the durian puff is nice~
the ShiLin Yeshi de Fried Tempura(甜不辣) and Fried Chicken is nice!
and they said that the Riceball(饭团) taste nice too! only available at Food Fair every year.
Still got the Sabah special durian Ice cream.
Hehe, next time shud go back n try others.
:)

Soooo sleepy dy...
Eyes half close typing here.
Today my phone bill overload again!
T^T
I have to settle this liao...
before mum find out this!

Gud nite and have a nice day tomoro!~
^^

Saturday, July 30, 2011

标杆人生

Ryan今天飞了,
虽然没有每天跟他混在一起,
可是每次都很喜欢跟他聊天,
他懂很多东西。

开始认识他应该是2009的prom night之前一段时间吧?
跟诗巫仔们大拍模特照时,
那时只是知道他这号人物,
来自台湾(很稀有耶)
然后一些花边新闻。。。
之后都是在msn聊天,
在学校见面还是不大熟的。
后来是跟那伙诗巫仔们去青团,
一起出去吃宵夜,
就慢慢认识了。
原来他也不是那么静静的,
不是不爱理人的那种啦~

说来,
虽然认识不深,
总觉得他是一个有自己看法的人,
好像看他总是稳稳的,
讲起话来也是整整齐齐,
有一种小孩子的款,
笑起来就是很真。

有些话他就是会直接跟我讲,
跟这里的人不一样,
不会扭扭捏捏,
他也不会讲一些东西来kek你,
因为他说的就是会让我感觉他的诚意那样。

今早收到他的信息,
shirley~master喔!!~~呵呵~希望你可以顺利毕业~找个好工作~还有一个好男人~~最重要的是要快快乐乐的^^!掰掰喔~
感觉很棒有这一群的朋友们,
每天打打闹闹,以互损+耍人为乐,再加上自信心爆棚!
如果不是因为有这一班朋友,
那我的生活真的会跟现在差很远。。。

我真的希望他在以后的路程都能心想事成,
只要坚定自己的信念,
知道自己要的是什么,
那就勇敢的迈出步伐,
向前进绝不后悔!

刚刚收到洛钦跟俊玲送的一本书,
叫“标杆人生”。
英文是The Purpose Driven Life!

我有点好奇为什么他们会送我,
原来是我的spiritual birthday present~!
^^

翻开书本的第一面,
就是说,
我的存在不是偶然的,
我记得很清楚,
因为另外一个像哥哥一样的朋友,
也是通过一首歌告诉我,
这个信息。


我一瞬间立刻就对这本书有奇特的感觉,
也许,
一切会有什么改变也说不定。

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

夏衰

有新朋友加入写部落格的行列了!~
哈哈。。。
一定会很好玩的
大家加油坚持写日记的好习惯
^^

Manual车我是会驾的。
今天因为要交货,
又没有车,
车给爸爸借他朋友,
只好跟表哥借他的manual kancil,

哇,
一趟路程死火了差不多有十次!
死火不要紧,
battery 还flat,
在很多人的jalan song路口start不到车啊~~~~
歹势咯!!

看到很多司机不耐烦的超车,
还转头看我,
幸好是晚上看不到脸,
我是很没skill啦...
如果不是逼不得已我也不会驾这辆车的。

到家门口了,
等到铁门开,
又死火。
引擎发不动,
我妹看我在外面磨蹭很久,
就出来,
然后就开始在那边推kancil屁股。
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈,
害我笑到!~
真的很可爱。

没办法啦,
还是很开心办好事了~
今晚可以睡个好觉。

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

开放!

今天哦,
不知道是干嘛,
感觉恍恍惚惚的,
还给人玩...

脸书乱乱来是一回事,
比较让我吓到的是,
刚才在学校给人一把抱住!

天哪!
我明白外国人是比较开放,
可是可是...
怎么了?
我看起来很洋化吗?
@_@

完全没道理
头脑完全休克!
他应该不能理解我的感受。

那时上完课走去电梯,
他们两个走在前面聊天我在后面,
今天没跟秀芳一起走因为她要跟老师讨论assignment,
结果一进去lift他就从后面抓住我,
摇我的肩膀,
后来就把我整个抱进去!
我的心脏真的要跳出来了!
很紧啊!

他一放开我,
我下意识到的就打他的手,
问他到底今天怎么了!
他说
对不起我只是玩玩的...
=________=

下次再这样我就把你海扁一顿!~
我思想开放可是我不能接受这种接触!
~_~"

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Rely on me from now on xD

Finished the cake already!! !
^^
Chocolate mousse cake for my little cousin's 21st bday!
I m sure the cake will be nice!
N i hope it will be enough for them!~
xD
Me and my sis did put in a lot of effort to bake the cake,
tried over and over again,
failed over and over again too!
Was working today,
cant bake the cake with her in the morning,
and was disappointed to find out that
she failed 3 cakes lagi when i was away....
then we try to work together and change to another recipe,
which is the rich creamy Chocolate Mousse Cake!
Tomoro only we r going to decorate it...
We found a design and was eager to try it!
She was too tired already.
i think she feels down seeing all the failures.
However,
in the end we still work everything out perfectly!
Promised my cousin that we will not disappoint her,
and there is still more to come for tomoro!
^^

Yesterday went to the cell group, which I have been absent for quite some time,
discussed on the Corinthian's 1,
and instantly relate it to something happened recently;
I was regret for sth i have done to my mum.
I did not speak to her for few days,
bcoz she asked me to go eat shit and said that i m useless people,
i was shocked and angry coz i dun understand why she have to scold me with cruel words,
when what i did was,
i did something she order me to do 30 minutes late,
(asking me find my sis at house next door and bring her phone back)
so after 3 days,
she came to me and say me again.
and i suddenly burst out what i keep for 3 days (perhaps longer than that, childhood unhappy memories)
i said she is unfair to everyone, she got prejudice against me, and bla bla bla...
i feel stupid,
when she told me that she cant even rmb that she scold "that" to me.
(that= aske me go eat shit)
=_=
i also ask her to tel me wat is my weakness that she dislike,
she told me that i seldom spend time with family,
she cant feel my existence in the home,
and thus she ignores me.
after she left the room i was terribly upset,
i did not feel any better,
i see that she is also upset for my misunderstanding towards her,
and i was really inconsiderate to have taken the words so seriously,
she was just too stressed after working for a whole day,
i feel sorry and i wanted to do sth to improve our relationship.
Yes, I have been spending lots of time outside,
how long we did not spend time to communicate with each other?
its just the matter of whether u r willing to take the initiative to approach ppl or not...
the next day after i finished my lecture,
instead of heading straight to my bedroom,
i went to her "office" after i parked my car.
"ma, i m back."
then i sit there and online using her phone,
she work and talk occasionally with me,
although she is lecturing me i dun feel annoyed at all,
reversely i feel happy and contented,
we stayed there until almost midnight and we went back together.
*sigh*
that is what called regret for good ba?
at first i feel regret for saying those to her,
regret for upsetting her,
but the communication between us,
makes me understand what she wants from me,
and i also expressed my feelings to her,
we accepted it and try to change,
i think i should spend more time with her so that she will be happier,

last few days she cried,
because she missed my bro badly.
i laughed at her and showed disbelief,
but she really admit to me,
last year when my bro just left,
the situation is even worse,
she can cry everyday just bcoz of miss him!
now reduced the frequency dy.
LOL

i seriously need to take over my bro's role or show more care towards my family needs...
how long have i been absent?
hmm,
was in my own world for quite long dy,
come out walk walk ba~
hehe...
now i wan to borrow my shoulder to people around me~
xD
today is a good day!
tomoro will be a good day too!
^^

Saturday, July 23, 2011

失败!

我是真的很想做好我的蛋糕生意啦....
真的真的...
为什么又是失败?
T^T
我不是这块料吗?
满心期待的等到现在,
结果失败了。

我已经仔细看过步骤很多次了...
礼拜要用的蛋糕,
明天要做工,
怎么会来得及啊???

如果明晚再失败,
那...
我还是每天练习做比较好一点啦...
=_=
加油,
大家也加油!

Friday, July 22, 2011

洗车记

今天我做乖女儿。
突然想洗车,
就洗了。
爸爸開心到。。。
說我如果每天表現這樣他就很開心了。
這么容易滿足了嗎?哈哈

洗着洗着,
看着這些車,
又開始佩服起爸爸,
到底他是怎樣做到今天的這樣的?
多辛苦熬到今天,
我要有这样的一辆车,
会是什么时候的事了呢?

我现在连myvi修理费都付不起,
车油都吃力,
我想买的是toyota或honda的话一个月得要有RM2000才勉强能哦~

有梦想才有一天会实现嘛...
没关系,
梦多点吧!
哈哈
这又不会妨碍到别人。

联想到吃,
我真想做那种怎么吃都不会胖的人,
吃多多还是可以身材好好,苗条的,
我觉得一定可以,
只是看你怎样做到而已,
运动量一定要能盖过你吃下去的。
我从假妈妈那里悟出来的假设。
这么贪吃吃这么多,
却还是能保持身材兼顾到健康,
是我的模范!
哈哈^^
总之就觉得享受美食是在这个世界上很重要的事啦~
另外,保持很好的身段会让我心情愉快。
所以结论就是,
尽量享受,
可是要付出更多才能达到平衡~

明天要去参加一个讲座会,
关于生产跟经济方面的课题的,
有点期待的说~
哈哈,
很有兴趣这样的东西希望不会让我失望。
看看有没有什么收获再来说。
晚安啦~
^^

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

控制一下啦

今天像神经那样,
跟他们一起从午餐吃到晚餐都是sot sot 的!
讲什么话题都不懂!
有的没的,
第一次觉得他们这一班人很疯!
哈哈!

结果。。。
刚才真的是失态了,
严重失态!
虽然他们是本来就很搞笑,
可是...
他们一定是觉得我今天不正常。
那是不是我的真面目啊?
再多几次看看,
万一给我爸妈看到我这样,
肯定不想上前跟我打招呼。

怎样才能控制一下自己?
lol

Sunday, July 17, 2011

一次两次,三番四次

真的是一次两次不够吗?
咄咄逼人。

我希望我的烦恼变成不是烦恼。
周围的人的烦恼都比我重要的多了,
真的,
我的微不足道。

我不懂三言两语怎么说的通。
可是经过了某些事,
听了一些话,
我心里舒服多了。

无论我有没有误会都好,
这番话让我想的远一点了。
而我没有怪人的意思,
因为没有什么好怪。

我就是很差的人,
就不要再来看我笑话了。
我,
自己会知道羞耻。

透明玻璃心

好多东西想写。
好忙。

本来已经可以准时下班的了。
东西都已跟上进度,
当然只要update一下每个星期的账就行了;
今天下午突然给我一个工,
当快要放工的时间时,
我完成了一半,
有点沾沾自喜,
然后他们说今天一定要。
我听了忍不住提高声量,
什么???今天要???
顿时泄了气,
想不到又要超时。
然后大家静静。
我一下后悔了,
对啊,
想到自己的问题,
跟刚才那个被讨论的人相比,
我的只是花多几个小时加油就能赶完的东西,
而他们的是辛酸往肚里吞,
背黑锅而不出声,
吃力不讨好(有时),
那些情况都是在自己能力范围外面,
不能控制的,
因为牵扯到的人,事,关系,都很多,
没那么容易叫人家配合你,
这些都是可能以后自己在职场会遇到的事,
到时我有没有那个能耐去忍受人家的气?
有没有宽大的胸怀去不跟人计较?

想一想我假妈妈说的话,
为什么会想发脾气就发脾气?
因为没有想到别人的感受,
没有被人家发脾气狠狠骂过;
如果被骂过,
那就应该把那种感受好好记起来,
那种难受的滋味相信会留在心里久久,
发脾气之前,
想到人家可能会有的感受,
也许就不会这么随心所欲的说出伤人的话了吧?

当然,
发脾气是很不对,
可是更可怕的是心地不好,
如果存有害人的心,
那就很难改了,
比改掉坏脾气是难上好多!
除非良心发现或得到一个很惨痛的教训,
是这样吗?
我想只有真正遇到了才会知道吧...
等有天我证实了我会告诉你们的。
哈哈!

嗨...
听身边人的故事也这么复杂。
自己也没好到哪里啦。
一直认为什么事简简单单就很好了,
偏偏有些东西是复杂的。
人心到底是什么组成的?
我喜欢透明玻璃做成的心,
多美呀...
现在找的到这样的心吗?



Friday, July 15, 2011

3 Students Lecture

This is the first time i encountered this situation,
with only 3 students in a class!
Even though master course we have less students,
and this semester there are less people taking this subject,
i still find this situation very rare.
about the economics theory we talked about today
(actually din touch much on the lecture, footballs, prostitution, beers, nice places to travel, durians, and unimas are mainly the things we discussed in this 3 hours!!!)
we talked about public goods,
where government provide services for us,
without having to pay,
local uni, puplic toilets, general hospital, are some examples,
we do not pay or pay very little to enjoy the facilities,
but,
how many really appreciate these privileges or make full use of them?
is there more marginal benefit over the marginal cost??
looking at us,
even paying huge amount of course fees,
we also do not value the lesson offered.
not saying i did not skip class before la,
i wonder what will the lecturer think,
will he reassess his teaching efficiency?
students skip classes because they found that MB is higher than MC?
so, meaning that going out to play or staying at home doing things else will compensate the hours stay in the lecture room?
hehe,
does everyone make their decision based on this logic?
i think no gua~
instead i believe many people just make decision based on wat sparks in their mind during that time~
anyway,
today we got lots of ojibala input of interesting topics and a committed discussions of the "issues".
the fewer people the more informal a class will be,
and i did enjoy the discussion!
this 3 students lesson will be very memorable for me in my students life~
haha!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

妈妈妈妈妈妈

哈哈
原来之前担心的事情不成立
^_^
我的预感并没有成真~

松了一口气
还可以继续跟你吵吵闹闹!
哈哈!
你说得没错,
一天没跟你吵真的会浑身不舒服...
xD

你跟我一样贪吃,
一样粗鲁,
你的原则,性格跟想法都是我欣赏的!
很少我爸以外的人我会这么佩服。

希望我们能成为一辈子的朋友!
或许我做你女儿也不错!
哈哈~
好好珍惜你的“假妈妈”咯~

真妈妈。。。
你。。。
对不起。
真的。
=(

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

自我催眠的方法

我知道我在逃避。
不过,
现在对我来说还是逃避比较容易。
嗨..
没看过比我更蠢的人!
你不是很大胆的吗?
无聊死。

哈哈!
无端端干嘛?
我很开心!
我很开心!
我很很很很开心!
哈哈...
我真的很开心啦
^_^

好听啊这首歌~

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

预感很准哪!!

当你一大早觉得会遇到某个人的时候,
你的预感会成真吗?

比如,
如果你一直看到有关他的数字,
有关他的人,
等等。。。
你真的很有可能会遇到他哦!
要小心
@@

在烦恼着有件事情,
我真不希望它变成事实,
这是我的预感,
而我也相信你想告诉我的烦恼就是这个~
:(
可是,
我们能够改变别人的决定吗?
不能,
我们什么也不能做的时候才是最糟糕的时候,
不是努力改变就能扭转这个局面,
你已经承受不住了,
不能硬逼你继续走下去,
我也感觉到你的无奈和辛苦,
最近身子不是很好了吧?
精神上的紧绷更是一触即发...
休息一下吧。。。
你还是可以回来找我们玩的哦~
没有了你,
也许我们会少一点依赖吧,
无论如何,
不是那么快就能接受的了的啊!~
想你的时候,
需要你的时候,
我们怎么办?
T-T

Monday, July 11, 2011

我会太依赖人吗?

你太依赖人了,
肯定不能一个人在外面生活,

那我跟你一起过去咯~

才不要,
我才不要照顾你!

天哪,
怎么跟我弟说的话一模一样!

我有那么糟糕吗?
我一直以为我还算独立了耶...
哼!
你们越这么说我越要证明事实未必如此~~~

不过想了想,
好像是这样。

也许我每次在人群中都会表现出来而我不知道??
当大家都这么说而自己不自觉地时候,
真要好好反省事实跟自我认知为什么会这么倒转。

还有一句,
一定要一起生活才能了解一个人吗?
你难道到现在还不了解我是怎样的人吗?
我很在意这句话!
:o

那我真的必须出去闯闯了!
我想....
应该没那么难吧?
去新加坡找钱,开拓视野好吗?

哈哈~
朋友,我们一起去哦!~
一起租房子一起煮吃一起谈心事
期待那一天到来^^

Sunday, July 10, 2011

@!#%*+=<>?€!\

谁被妈妈骂过,
你?没用啦!去吃大便!
可以分享一下你们的感受吗?

很好奇,
这样被嫌弃的小孩,
会用怎样的心态在那种环境长大。

世界就是有很多种类的人对吧?
有些人教育方法就是会比较偏激...

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

弟弟又走了...
当然的,又带走了一些东西...
不大清楚是什么。
我想你了!
=[

今天是婆婆生日,
亲戚们都出来帮她庆生,
她好开心哦。

因为她日想夜思的儿子女儿们都来到她面前了,
刚刚二姐带着姐夫来,
婆婆一直拉着二姐的手,
揉了又揉,
重复一样的话好多次,
大家都问他们俩几时准备结婚。
大家就是姑姑们还有婆婆啦~
哈哈!

婆婆82岁了。
她以为自己84岁,
看到蛋糕写82,
一直跟姑姑辩,
很好笑。

每次姑姑们来都会玩一个游戏,
看她能认几个孩子几个孙的游戏,
我骗她说我是二姐,
她把我的手握住,
接着靠近近看了又看这张脸,
问说,这不是盈儿吗?
哈哈~
算你啦婆婆~
=]

我其实也挺不开心的,
没事啦...
会开解人的人不是通常会比较想的开吗?
真的是医者不能自医。

弟弟,
你的礼物真的很好!
直少我还能在这里写我的心情,
帮了我好多。
心情平复一些了。
好笑
开心哪婆婆。

Monday, July 04, 2011

little update ;)

waiya,
so kelien cannot write blog coz of no line at home...
now since the class not yet start then i come update my blog xia...

but well,
these few days without Internet,
although feel like had not done sth,
but overall feel very good.

weird la,
now everyday OT also wont feel frustrated anymore
haha,
seems like i m becoming crazy liao..
Satisfied with the outcome of my job~
Finally
^^

Since my bro came back,
i also have little chance to meet him,
coz he got too many activities with his "BROTHERS"
then this weekend we did somethings together,
go visit xiao mei, bbq, wash car n talk talk talk!
lol
everytime wash car with him sure play 99 one!

arhhhh,
n i found out that i super super like this subject!
managing culture n diversity!
diversity diversity diversity!
why is everyone different???
i m going to find out more!

this is a story from the lecture today:
The Window
A young couple moves into a new neighborhood.
The next morning, while they are eating breakfast, the young woman sees her neighbor hang the wash outside.
That laundry is not very clean, she said,
she doesn’t know how to wash correctly.
Perhaps she needs better laundry soap.
Her husband looked on, but remained silent.
Every time her neighbor would hang her wash to dry, the young woman would make the same comments.
About one month later, the woman was surprised to see a nice clean wash on the line and said to her husband:
Look! She has learned how to wash correctly. I wonder who taught her this.
The husband said:
I got up early this morning and cleaned our windows!

What we see when watching others, depends on the purity of the window through which we look.
Before we give any criticism, it might be a good idea to check our state of mind and ask ourselves if we are ready to see the good rather than to be looking for something in the person we are about to judge.
meaningful n worth spending sometime to think~
:DDD

haiz...
i wan to watch transformer 3
:o

Friday, July 01, 2011

Vampire

Just now when we were having class,
A fren,
Who is not very close to me throughout this course,
Turn few times to me n stare for few seconds,

Finished class n meet at lift there again,
He immediately ask me y I use contact lens..
Haha!
Yuan Lai...
I thought wat is so weird with me today...

I rmb some ppl told me that I looked like vampire,
In this blue color contact lens,
"do I look like vampire?"

"ya! It's scary!"
Haha... So... I can come out with this at night to scare ppl then!
:p

Aiyoh... But scary is nt good Leh...
If anyone is telling me I look scary again,
Then I.........
Change grey colour ones!
Hmph!

Vampires!
@_@

Hehe, today's class is just nice!
I miss Xavier really!
If nt bcoz of him,
I will nt be who I m today also,
Maybe my economics is just a mere "P",
Maybe I won't have such interest in economics(which I think is a very very important subject n knowledge to master),
N I will not become very very close fren with miss Aida,

But I have no chance to the him also,
Even though he said we have a treat using the money collected from the penalty after finishing the final of the subject...
Huhu...
I think he is a very successful tutor,
Can still affect his student even after so long time...
Hope he is doing very well, no matter in wat industries he is in,
I believe he sure is a "bu ping fan" de person!

Not all successful person completed their studies,
Those who completed high lvl of studies, what r they doing now?
Hehe, worth pondering on right?